i just wanna be ok

do you even have the slightest idea just what you put me through every week??
i cant even confide in you anymore. i know i have said it in the past, but you should probably get used to it cause your gunna hear it until it finally sinks into that fat skull of yours!
you have no idea what you do to me cause your too busy focused on yourself. and i mean why should you give the time of day to anyone else but the most important in your mind. im only your fucking daughter. and "by the by" your little games are fucking sick!
the things you do... inexplainable.
i need to clear you out of my head every weekend!
im so much better without you. doesnt that hurt you, in the slightest?
why do i even try, i can never win with you. its always a battle. you never ever say what you mean. its a fucking constant battle. you never hear what i say. you have no idea what happens between me and people!!! you always seem to get under my skin! here we go again.
yeah sure, we have our moments... once in a blue fucking moon! do you NOT see what you are doing. you are tearing up everyone around you and you think its OUR fault!
open your fucking eyes dad!!!!!! this is real life!
you are hurting and hurting people and you could care less. its not effecting you so why should you.
you know i could rant about this for hours... thats sad. i just wish you read this. maybe you would see the truth. god knows if i even tried to talk to you, you'd put it all on me and be like "well if you dont like it, change it"
its so like you not to give a shit!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!
i just wish you knew half the things you do!!!!!!!!!
i love you and all but its starting to fade very thin!
my faith in you is running low!

please change