i just wanna be ok

do you even have the slightest idea just what you put me through every week??
i cant even confide in you anymore. i know i have said it in the past, but you should probably get used to it cause your gunna hear it until it finally sinks into that fat skull of yours!
you have no idea what you do to me cause your too busy focused on yourself. and i mean why should you give the time of day to anyone else but the most important in your mind. im only your fucking daughter. and "by the by" your little games are fucking sick!
the things you do... inexplainable.
i need to clear you out of my head every weekend!
im so much better without you. doesnt that hurt you, in the slightest?
why do i even try, i can never win with you. its always a battle. you never ever say what you mean. its a fucking constant battle. you never hear what i say. you have no idea what happens between me and people!!! you always seem to get under my skin! here we go again.
yeah sure, we have our moments... once in a blue fucking moon! do you NOT see what you are doing. you are tearing up everyone around you and you think its OUR fault!
open your fucking eyes dad!!!!!! this is real life!
you are hurting and hurting people and you could care less. its not effecting you so why should you.
you know i could rant about this for hours... thats sad. i just wish you read this. maybe you would see the truth. god knows if i even tried to talk to you, you'd put it all on me and be like "well if you dont like it, change it"
its so like you not to give a shit!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!
i just wish you knew half the things you do!!!!!!!!!
i love you and all but its starting to fade very thin!
my faith in you is running low!

please change

i'll be here as long as you are, dad.

why dont you get it?

...love me without fear
trust me without restriction
want me without demand
accept me for who i am...

a few simple words to lIve by.
you found these words and introduced them into my life,
WHY can't you live by them!
i Swear half the time i question everything about our relationship!

Daddy?? really thaTs what you'd call yourself?
because honestly thats a very rare guesture on your part!
i thought we had more than we do know!

we constantly fIght. you have no trust for me, and for no reason too
i never did anything to break it!
im an adult! pLease, why can;t you treat me Like one!
i swear i cant even confide in you anymore and thats really sad, dad.

to make this situation to be at that leveL...thats pretty low.
but whatever, its like we cant expect much more from you.
your unreliable, no one can depend on yOu, no one can even trust you

is this how you want people to precieVe you?
actually?

im going out to the world now, dad, and thE last thing i want is for you to be a scarce figure
in my life.
soon i will be moving away, i would love it if you supported me and helped me along the way.
this is a scary voyage for me and i sure as hell cant do it bY myself
it would be great if yOu were by my side

...after all i'm sUpposed to be daddy's little girl

(I STILL LOVE YOU)

OMGG!!!

Dear My one follower!

woot ooh how i love you!!!

i cant wait till we spend many nights together coming up with your birthday

and then the always amazing JONAS BROTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant believe were actually going this day has finally come and i cant

even begin to address how estatic i am that i am going with you!!!

dear friend<3

lets talk about friends...

.a friend is some one who knows us-and loves us anyways.

.a true friend holds you with both their hands.

.friendships need no words.

.friends are the sunshine of life.

.dont walk infront of me i may not follow-dont walk behind me i may not lead-just walk besides me and be my friend.

can't wait...

26 and a half hours and counting till i take off,

and i never want to come back!

living on the beach for 8 days with my

drink in one hand a cigar in the other is

exactly what im looking for!

miss me, miss you <3

conclusion

so i have talked and talked and i have finally came to a conclusion.
i hvae nothing to say to you, in fact im riding it out and seeing what could come of
your bizarre behaviour!
im leaving out of the country and when i come back i hope you have your answer.
all i know is that im not your booty call. one way or another, i think im pretty positive
that im done with you.

ive found my milk chocolate swirl! haha ;)

want a change<3

tired of this, i wanna quit

quit, not life, but the way i live it

it makes me confused

confused to see

to see that this isnt really me.

i want this to change

change who i am

but i need someone here

to succeed in my plan

wrong idea

well now it makes sence...well sorta.
ima way more confused in a way but not completely.
i mean you tell me all this crap about how you feel about her and
then the next minute you are asking me to hang out?! wierd? yes!
it makes me think if your telling me all this to make me jealous
and thinking the fact that you can just ring me up for anything you like
because you think i have mad love for you is wrong and for your information
you have the totally wrong idea!
yes i will always have feelings for you but i have way more dignity than that.
im not going to sink that low.

lost in translation

i don't understand how one minute you're a complete loser and the next you're cuddling up to me!
you spin me round and I'm not sure i like it. i know if you were to come back in my life some how it would stress me out. i just don't get how we started off great, then some shit went down, and then you suddenly stop everything including looking at me and even that's not much! and then all of a sudden your back!
I'm not just some time!